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OOC: Stefan Ficcage [Apr. 3rd, 2005|12:10 pm]
Stefan Dark
[Current Mood |cheerfulcheerful]

Title: Edge of Forever
Author: DC
Type: Original
Genre: Romance/Light Angst
Rating: PG-13
Warnings: Sex hinted at, adult situations
Summary: Stefan POV. Stefan muses over an upcoming meeting and finds comfort in the arms of his angel.
Disclaimer: I don't own Rhiannon LeFrost or Asher LeFrost. Both of them are the property and sole creation of the lovely Lily. Any mistakes or OOCnes of Rhiannon are all me.
A/N: This revolves around the current roleplay going on between Stefan and Rhiannon at Purgatory right now. Most/some of this make not make sense because of that but I hope it does. ~_^

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OOC: "Now I Lay Me Down - Part 7" Original Ficcage, Stefan/Julian [Dec. 21st, 2004|09:19 pm]
Stefan Dark
The saga of the angel and his pet continues.
(And FYI this occurs pre-Purgatory before he ever fluttered into the community here.)

Title: Now I Lay Me Down (Part 7)
Fandom: Original
Genre: Fantasy/Gothic
Rating: NC-17
Warnings: Yaoi, master/slave themes, an angel of a different flavor, male/male sex
Quicky Description: Julian and Stefan properly christen Julian’s new piano. A confession is made that could change everything.

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Geeee…did I leave this hanging a bit? *adjusts halo*
Merry Christmas and all that jazz. Happy Hanukkah.

X-Posted to yaoi_smut_fics, yaoi, stefan_dark, and my own LJ.
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OOC: Stefan Ficcage----"Take My Dragon, Please" [Dec. 17th, 2004|11:27 pm]
Stefan Dark
Title: Take My Dragon, Please
Author: DC, Dave
Type: Original (Comedyish, Fluffy)
Warnings: Err...mild violence, cussing and literal cursing...inneundo...
Rating: PG
Summary: Stefan is left alone with a dragon. Much destruction of property and yelling follows in a case of babysitting gone wrong.
Disclaimer: Rhiannon and Ki belong to theblackraven. Any mistakes or oopsies in their portrayl, blame me. In other words, Lily can hunt me down and kick me for it. *runs, hides*

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I love Stefan and Ki....*snickers*
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Ramblings...and Thoughts... [Nov. 29th, 2004|01:02 pm]
Stefan Dark
[Current Mood |calmcalm]
[Current Music |"Funkytown"]

I saved my angel and had a reunion with an old friend.
I really hate that bastard. I do.
Bastian saved my ass like he always does when I need him but then, I've returned the favor enough that it no longer matters between us.
Apparently, he's been pushing me this entire time. To become more and what I am now. I'm an angel but I have this uncanny ability to turn into a silver lightbulb or ornament.
I could be a dandy christmas angel.
A lot has happened, other than me becoming more powerful. I have a new little demon that I don't know what to do about when I'm away from Rhiannon.
Of course, my demon turns me into a raging nympho. Well, I already was that but this is worse.
Lust. Lust in the old sense of the word, down to you have to have sex or go out of your mind with wanting.
I've found my mate and power that I never imagined I would have. A hard on that won't quit is a small price to pay for everything I am now.
I'm content and ...happy in ways I haven't been ...since never. Asher's gone at the moment and I'm settling into life with Rhiannon and the day to day grind of Purgatory again.
I've hired a few and lost a few but the club still goes on. Found a new music director through Bastian. He's also here because of a little trinket Bastian had me guarding.
Lapis is his name and I have my doubts about him but then don't I of everyone?
Bas trusts him so that's that.
I'll keep an eye on him and what his true purpose for being in San Francisco might be. Otherwise, there's too much to tell and I'm tired of dwelling on what once was.
I can't believe I brought that piano back out.
I wonder how he is liking his new life, without me around to torment him.
There are times I miss my songbird. But a deal is a deal.
Still, I'm going to talk to Abby and see how he is. I might visit him and...see what happens.
You never know where the day will lead you.
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OOC: "Now I Lay Me Down - Part 6" Stefan/Julian Ficcage [Nov. 29th, 2004|11:48 am]
Stefan Dark
[Current Mood |contemplativecontemplative]
[Current Music |"Razzle Dazzle" Chicago]

Title: Now I Lay Me Down (Part 6)
Fandom: Original
Genre: Fantasy/Gothic
Rating: NC-17
Warnings: Yaoi, master/slave themes, an angel of a different flavor, male/male sex
Quicky Description: After six months of living with his new 'master', Julian reflects on the time while playing the piano for a scantily clad Stefan.

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Enjoy as always.
Oh and may I just say having a day off ROCKS!

X-Posted to yaoi, yaoi_smut_fics, my own LJ and Stef's LJ
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OOC: "Now I Lay Me Down - Part 5" Stefan/Julian Ficcage [Oct. 26th, 2004|11:47 pm]
Stefan Dark
Title: Now I Lay Me Down (Part 5)
Fandom: Original
Genre: Fantasy/Gothic
Rating: NC-17
Warnings: Yaoi, master/slave themes, an angel of a different flavor, male/male sex
Quicky Description: Julian goes from masturbating by his lonesome to finally getting his first taste of what it is like to have sex with an angel.
Disclaimers: None. They belong to me. Heh.

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Enjoy as always.

Just FYI. Part 1, Part 2, Part 3, and Part 4 can be found by clicking the respective links. ~-^

X-Posted to yaoi, yaoi_smut_fics, my own LJ and Stef's LJ
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OOC: Part 4 of "Now I Lay Me Down" Stefan/Julian Ficcage... [Oct. 23rd, 2004|03:39 am]
Stefan Dark
[Current Mood |cheerfulcheerful]
[Current Music |"Iris" Goo Goo Dolls]

Wow. Fourth installment of this angel smut ficage for your pleasure. It took me forever (two months) to get this one done for various reasons. Apologies to any reading it or who care. *smirks and shrugs*

Just FYI. Part 1, Part 2, and Part 3 can be found by clicking the respective links. ~-^

Title: Now I Lay Me Down (Part 4)
Fandom: Original
Genre: Fantasy/Gothic? (Not sure what to classify this one as lol)
Author: DC, Dave
Rating: NC-17
Warnings: Yaoi, shouen-ai, boy on boy, spanking, violence, master/slave themes…I figure I should add this...the angel theme might offend some....:(.....
Quicky Description: Stefan comes home to find his kitchen in an interesting state and Julian is looking rather…guilty. Interesting rambling and counting follows. Julian’s poor backside ends up …just read if you want to know all the particulars. ~-^
Disclaimers: None. They belong to me. MUAHAHAH!

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As always, enjoy.

Part Five should be up in the next few days. Go me. Go me.

X-Posted to various places...
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OOC: Ficcage...but relevant to the roleplay of Stef right now... [Sep. 17th, 2004|12:39 am]
Stefan Dark
[Current Mood |busybusy]
[Current Music |"So Cold" Breaking Benjamin]

Title: "You Only Live Once"
Author: DC, Dave
Fandom: Original
Rating: PG ish
Warning: Adult Themes, Language
Summary: Stefan goes hunting and finds his proverbial needle ina haystack. Conversation and plotting between an angel and an old acquanitance of his. This is bascially roleplay that took off into a long fic. Questions about the characters, feel free to ask.

Oh, and they BOTH belong to me. HAH.

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X-Posted to my LJ ambrosewulf

Also, takes place right before the post I'm fixing to make to the community. ~-^ Yay. Go me.
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Life & Loss [Sep. 13th, 2004|10:02 pm]
Stefan Dark
[Current Mood |crankycranky]
[Current Music |"So Cold" Breaking Benjamin]

Where the hell are you?
I haven't seen you in almost a week. I wouldn't be worried about you, except you...
No note. No word. Nothing. You just disappeared off the face of the earth.
I can only guess that either Michael has killed you or taken you (which he would have already gloated about to me, profusely) or your brother has you.
Maybe, you just ...skipped out?
I don't know. My heart tells me you wouldn't do that, anymore than I would to you.

I just don't know anymore.
I'm so fucking tired of being so god damned confused and angry. For so many reasons. The only thing that makes sense is the love I have for you. The rightness of you at my side.

I almost lost you to that bastard of an angel. Michael, your timing is as impeccable as it has always been. Almost watching you die....
Angel, I can't endanger you.
I just want to know that you are safe and alive. I can feel that you are alive even if I don't know it for a fact. Safe, I don't know. It's eating at me, baby.
I don't understand why I am even worrying or caring or feeling anything at all. Love does this, doesn't it?

It makes you feel things and care about people other than your own neck. Funny, fucked up thing about love. I always thought it was about choice until I met you.
Hell, until I met you I only believed in lust at first sight or fuck, never love. Now, I just believe again.
And I don't know what the hell to do with all these conflicting emotions inside of me now.
Most of it is going back to being the angel I once was as compared to the angel I have become here on earth. Both are vastly different and bringing me a wealth of confusion on top of everything else.

We're both alive. I'll annoy Asher when I see him next to see if he knows where you are and if you are alive or dead. I have a club to run and a life to live. For us, I can at least do that much.
Fuck the rest of the world.
I need a bit of time away from all of this, angel. I know you'll understand and maybe....
If Michael manages to catch up with me while I am away from my normal city...
Maybe he will leave you the hell alone.
I can only hope, baby.

I'm still the man I've always been since I was created out of the lifespark of heaven. All that's changed is my perspective. The heart and spirit have only grown more world weary and cynical.
Until you, I didn't even believe I was capable of letting anyone in again. I didn't want to. I fought so long and so hard against letting another being touch me how you have.
And now that its happened, everything is mixed up and inside out.

That doesn't stop me from moving on. I just keep moving. Rolling over and letting the world kick my ass never has been my strong point. Letting it kiss my ass is another matter entirely.

I need a vacation.
Maybe...if only you could go with me..
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Healing Tyme [Sep. 6th, 2004|01:39 am]
Stefan Dark
[Current Mood |worriedworried]
[Current Music |"Angel's Punishment" Lacuna Coil]

Being raped sucks ass as does being as weak as a fucking mortal.
I hated it. Almost as much as myself for not being strong enough to stop it from happening. I can't stand anyone to touch me except my angel right now.
Imagine me, the original nymphomanic angel not liking being caressed.
I would laugh if it wasn't so damned true. Demons and their ideas of vengence and betrayl. Sure, I couldn't just sell myself into eternal slavery to some nice butterfly or something.
No, I had to pick a demon prince of hell. And not just any demon prince but that one.
The saving grace of it all is that it has brought my angel to me. I love her. I don't think anyone can quite understand the marvel and impossibility I find within those three simple words.
She could do so much better than me though. Damn it all. I put her in danger just by breathing. As much as I hate to admit it and all assurances aside, I can't help but feel the truth of Asher's words.
His words on Michael to be specific. He will kill my angel for so many reasons and half of them I probably don't even know.
I survived but will only be to die again. Without her...

I don't want to be in a world without her.

I don't really know what will happen but all I do know is that I am free. Free to act and do what is right according to my own heart and honor.
Two things that no one has been able to take from me, not even my ...master.
Yeah, I could definitely love that bastard as much as I do my angel even if he would never return it. Funny thing about love and one reason I've avoided it like the plague for ages is that it makes you do insane thing. That and love exists for itself alone, whether it is even known of or not.
Love simply is.

There's a damn good reason that angels of heaven are forbidden to form attachments beyond their love of the Creator. Such things divide loyalty and consume a being. That and it's hard to be a completely netural, unfeeling bastard of an angel if you actually open yourself up to this love thing.
It brings you compassion and pain as well as suffering. Hope is in there somewhere. Like this impossible, insane hope that is battering against my natural cynicism.
Impossible dreams and fights have always found me. I have always saved myself somehow though the ones I love I have never been able to save or trust.
I hate it.
I would rather lose my wings than betray someone I care even a little for.
That particular list is not very long these days and for good reason.

So, I'm healed. Completely healed magically and physically. The spirit is mending but is about as whole as it will get at the moment. I can thank my angel for that. Without her, I would truly be lost....her and her brother both.

Bastard. You know what you did to me and yes I know very well what I did to you.
We royally fucked each other over but at least I was fucking honest with you.
I never lied or tried to deceive you.
Never once did I attempt to make you something you are not or use ...knowledge against you.

I really don't want to think on you again, though I know I have been in your thoughts since I slipped out of your grasp. I've always slipped out of your fucking grasp and that is the attraction between us.
Well, it's the only one that makes sense to me anyway.
A Cherubim is just not worth much in heaven these days or the days I resided in that illustrious place. Especially not a Cherubim with spirit and a compassionate drive to change the status quo.

I digress.
I'm healed and I am done with self-pity. All of the introspection in the world cannot change how things may or may not play out.

I just live and breathe, knowing that any moment may lead to a place I do not want to go.
But I will. For you.
For us.

Because it is the last trick in my deck of impossiblity that I have left. The last rabbit to pull out of the proverbial hat.
Only this is one more killer bunny with some nasty fangs that are probably going to bite my dick off.
More's the pity.

What price this game of love brings and what fools immortals be.
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